My First Love 2 How it went awry
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“I still love you but we can’t be together anymore,”I definitely wasn’t expecting those words. It’s been what? A few weeks and he already gave up on us. I’ll tell you what led to the breakup.
Our relationship was nothing short of a public affair. Almost everyone knew about our relationship. It’s not like I wanted to be his dirty little secret but I would have preferred at least some form of privacy in our relationship. Our classmates, our juniors and even our teachers were aware of our relationship. There were a lot of public opinions, somebody always had something to input concerning our relationship. He didn’t like it at all. I didn’t like it either but it didn’t particularly bother me all that much.
The day I changed my profile picture on Facebook to a photo of James, I got a lot of comments from our school mates. Why couldn’t everybody just mind their business? The final straw that broke the camel’s back was when somebody told James that I was dating someone else. Michael was another guy in our class who had a crush on me and never really tried to hide how he felt about me. When someone lied to James that I was dating Michael, he didn’t even listen to me. I got angry and I tried to deny the allegations but he just told me to go away and walked out on me. I cried. I couldn’t do anything but cry. He didn’t believe me. That was what eventually led to our breakup.
Sometime later, a friend of mine told me that James was in a relationship with someone else. I didn’t register the information, I didn’t want to believe it. I was in denial. I asked him about it on Facebook. He told me that he was sorry and he didn’t like me anymore. He said he had feelings for someone else.
My friends were confusing. Some would tell me that James and I were perfect together. Some would tell me to move on. I realized at that moment that my friends were good as shoulders to cry on but they sucked at giving advice.
James began to avoid me for a reason unknown to me and it was evident to everyone that he was avoiding me. Mariam and I tried to confront him about it but he walked out on us. It was then that I finally understood the meaning of I DON’T LIKE YOU ANYMORE. It made me mad. James had moved on and I hadn’t. It reminded me of the popular Taylor swift sing, I Knew You Were Trouble where she says,”When I fell hard, you took a step back without me.” That was exactly how I felt.
I spent weeks trying to get over him. It seemed like an impossible task.I still loved him. There was no way I could just turn off my feelings for him. I went offline for seven months, absolutely no social media. I heard he had gone to the university. When I eventually came online again, he was the first person I messaged. My head warned me against it, but my heart wouldn’t listen.
I went to his house when he was on a school break. He was shocked to see me. We didn’t talk, we were practically acting like strangers. He escorted me down the street when I left but we didn’t really say anything to each other. It was weird and awkward. We barely talk these days and I’m still trying to get over him completely. I won’t lie, it’s hard. That saying that you never really get over your first love is probably true.
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